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Lynn noticed Callie the moment she walked in the store. The girl was singularly focused, clearly on a mission. A difficult one, for which she’d steeled herself in advance. Two hours after Callie had come in, Lynn realized that she hadn’t seen her leave. Lynn finished helping the last customer in line, then set out to find the girl. Callie was sitting on the floor in front of the greeting card rack, two large stacks of cards in front of her. While Lynn watched, the girl picked up a card from the pile on her left, quickly scanned it, sighed sans satisfaction, and placed it in the pile to her right. Then another, this time much quicker, shaking her head in disgust. Then another. Lynn glanced up at the section header to see the holiday that was giving the girl such fits, but she knew what it was before even looking. Mother’s day.

“Finding everything okay?” Lynn asked cheerily.

“Yes,” Callie answered without looking up.

“Hard to find the right sentiment on such an important holiday, isn’t it?”

“Sure,” Callie shrugged. She read another card, added it to the now-taller right stack.

“Apologies for the thin selection. Since the day’s tomorrow a lot of the nicer ones have already grown wings and flown.”

“Mm.”

Lynn was a little perplexed, thought it best to leave the girl alone. “All right. You just let me know if you need anything, okay sugar?”

“Okay.” Callie scanned another. Lynn turned to head back to the counter. “Hey, hold on,” Callie called.

“Yes?” Lynn turned back.

“Do you have anything a little less… I don’t know, tender? These are all really sweet and loving and stuff.”

“Oh. Well, um,” Lynn stuttered.

“It doesn’t have to be mean or anything like that. Just, you know, something that maybe if you gave to a complete stranger he wouldn’t necessarily be offended. Or complimented. He’d just react as if you’d handed him something of some sort from somewhere.”

“We… we do have the generic cards. Down at the end here. Since they’re not holiday-specific they tend to be a little more general. That might be what you’re looking for.”

Callie smiled for the first time and Lynn smiled back, then left the girl alone line she’d meant to and returned to the counter. Callie did find one in the generic section. It was brown and green and tan, with a pattern that looked like flowers or vines or vericose veins. The front said, “For you…” and the inside said, “…on your special day.” Callie still thought it was a bit too warm and tender to give to her mother, but was smart enough to recognize that there was no further downgrading unless she just wanted to hand mom a piece of cardboard. The thought made her cringe. Not the cardboard, but the possibility of having to hand the card to her mother in person. Callie made a mental note to pick up stamps on her way home so she could mail the card instead. Then she sat cross-legged on the floor, pulled a pen from her purse, and started to fill out the card like she was supposed to.

To whom it may concern:

I understand that this is an important day for those of the female parental occupation, and so found it prudent to pay appropriate homage to this via this printed card and cheerful bauble.

(Callie intended to include a yet-unknown trinket of some sort with the card.)

While I am understandably disinclined to express gratitude towards you in a personal and emotional sense, I am of course aware that your previous fornication with the man I will refer to as Dale is what led to my conception. And so I do at very least owe you my thanks for the aforementioned activities as I would not exist without them. That is all I can think of to say and so I will leave it at that.

Cordially yours, Callie Fulton.

Callie politely put back the stacks of cards, then paid for the one she’d written in and left. It felt dirty, lying like this. Being so nice. But it’s what society expected of her. She could be nice for one day. Lynn watched the girl walk to her car, then locked up the little shop and wandered through the aisles aimlessly for a while.

Lynn and her mother had gotten into an argument a few months back. Hadn’t spoken since. It had been over something silly. So much so that it took Lynn a moment to even recall what it was. Then she remembered. Her mom had said something critical about the yeast rolls Lynn had brought over for the family dinner at Christmas. In hindsight it was obviously less of a criticism than an observation, a preference for a little more rise and moisture. But her mother’s voice always had a grating quality to it. Could turn a song of angels into the strangling of a cat. Lynn should be used to it by now. Besides, that one thing wasn’t all that bad, relatively speaking. She looked around to make sure there were no more customers in the store that she’d overlooked, glanced out at the now-empty spot where Callie’s car had been parked, then picked up the phone to call her mother.

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The Suburban Strange
The Suburban Strange by Nathan Kotecki

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Before I say word one about this book, I feel I must provide a few disclaimers.

1. I know the author. So naturally my real or perceived impressions of the author as an individual may come into play.

2. I am also a writer. As such, I may approach the story much differently. (I’m not being arrogant here — I don’t think a writer’s approach to reading is necessarily better or worse than any other reader, just different.)

3. I typically do not read young adult fiction.

Now for the sub-disclaimers to the above to make things even more confusing:

- As an asterisk to both 1 and 2, my experience has been that I should not be friends or even play nice with other writers. We’re notoriously harsh and envious and conniving and overly critical in non-constructive ways. In fact, I’d say that my initial reaction to discovering that Mr. Kotecki was also a writer was to make a mental note to be more cautious and distrusting towards him. Add to that the fact that he is a writer significantly further along in the game than I and you’ve got a recipe for professional jealousy like you would not believe. Before I’d even read the back cover I was relishing the myriad ways to cut him down and gleefully romp through my fields of petty biases.

- As for 3, when I say, “I typically do not,” I really mean never. Or almost never. I try not to be a book snob, I really do. I just want people to read what they want. My shameless love of graphic novels can attest to that. But still, when I see typical teen fiction on shelves I judge it in ways normally reserved for the kind of men who watch porn on their iPhones on the subway. Modern young adult fiction usually represents, to me at least, a ridiculous escape. Not the good kind of escape that most books do, but rather an escape from privilege and into a world of even greater entitlement. In my mind’s eye I see wealthy white suburban tweens wishing a sparkly vampire would save them from their dreadful life in a giant house in an affluent neighborhood attending a great school. Or lining up for 10 hours to see The Hunger Games, but having gained nothing in terms of political curiosity or activist spark that the book touches on repeatedly. (Or worse than proving oblivious to such messages, making manifest the worst in humanity by being annoyed that characters in the story are of a race other than caucasian.) But I digress. See what I mean when I say I dislike YA?

So here’s the thing: these disclaimers may magnify my opinion in some ways, minimize (or trivialize) it in others, or just straight up cancel one another out. In short, there’s a great thicket of psychology to get through here before even getting to the cover of the book itself. Suffice to say that whatever the final official scientific tally may be, the odds were stacked against The Suburban Strange with this humble reviewer.

…and yet, I still loved it. A lot.

Despite a block of negative disclaimers that are probably significantly longer than the average online book review itself, I came away from this book incredibly impressed. So without revealing too much, let me tell you what I loved and why you should read this book.

The protagonist, Celia, is a revelation. A strong, positive female lead unlike almost anything else you’ll see in the genre. What makes her most impressive is that she is not a caricature or cliche. She’s no damsel in distress with no willpower or personality of her own, a la Bella of Twilight, but she’s also not a natural and confident warrior, a la Katniss of Hunger Games. She’s not even a smart and quirky Hermione, a la Harry Potter. What differentiates her is that she CHANGES. In the course of a story that covers but one year, the reader truly watches and feels her change and grow. Most of all, it’s in a realistic and organic fashion. One of the things I’m most sensitive to is the “deus ex machina” aspect of too many stories. I hate it when I can feel the author strong-arming his/her plot or characters into doing something that they don’t want to do. I never felt that with Celia. I felt that she wanted to grow strong and find her own way and that the author let her.

The mysteries of the story — and there are several — were similarly revelatory. One of the things I hate about YA fiction (and many adult mysteries) is that the mysteries are either A) so obvious that only the most oblivious reader wouldn’t figure it out, or B) intentionally designed such that NOBODY will figure it out until the author spells it out for you with clues that weren’t really even in the story until just before the reveal (I’m looking at you, Rowling). Here, I feel like Kotecki keeps you guessing on pretty much every mystery of the story without condescending to the reader in any way. There was never a point where I had everything figured out confidently until it was revealed. Even on moments that I thought I had it, I was either totally wrong or remained uncertain enough that a reveal was still a surprise.

And that leads me to the last major appreciation: the characters as a whole. For a YA book, this story has a lot of characters. Good characters. Developed characters. Not just people who appear and do one thing or offer their contrived line and then disappear. Most characters come back again and again, seasoning the story with intrigue at just the right times from exactly the right angles. While I may not have “liked” every character in terms of wanting to have them as a friend or thinking they were good people, I did want to know more about every character. What was their background? How did they get to this point? Where were they going to go next? They all seemed so alive and real that I’d find myself hoping for even the bit parts to get their moment in the sun they were so vivid.

That’s about all I can say without starting to spoil it for everyone. Hopefully I haven’t already. But if you’re wondering whether you should read this book, the answer is an unequivocal YES. It won me over so much that I’m currently brooding alone with a bottle of whiskey. (This is one of the reasons writers drink: the unfortunate existence of better writers.) I almost hate myself for how much I can’t wait for the sequel. The Suburban Strange will restore your faith in the young readers of the future and the writers who work for them; go read it.

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The phone rang.

“Is Beatrice there?”

“No,” Melissa said, “There’s no Beatrice here. I think you have the wrong number.”

“Oh,” said the caller, “I’m so sorry! I’ll try the number again.”

Melissa got back to work. An hour or so later, her office phone rang again.

“Beatrice?”

“No, I’m sorry. Wrong number again.”

“Thanks.” Click.

Half an hour later, again.

“Are you sure there’s no Beatrice there? Isn’t this Winegarden Psychiatric Hospital?”

“I’m really sorry,” Melissa said. (Why was she apologizing?) “But there’s no Beatrice here. This is Silverman’s Auto Insurance.”

“You’re certain?” the caller asked.

Melissa glanced around as if to double-check. “Yes, pretty sure.”

“Pretty sure or totally sure?”

“Totally sure. This is definitely Silverman’s.”

Click.

Melissa starting Googling. She searched for “Beatrice winegarden psychiatric hospital.” Right away she found a page for a Dr. Beatrice McMichael at the Winegarden Psychiatric Hospital in Massachusetts. She wrote down the phone number listed on the website — which was way different than Melissa’s work number. Not even the same area code. She kept the sheet of paper by the phone in case the strange lady called again.

But then she started to worry. What if she told the woman this other number and it wasn’t the Beatrice she was looking for? Dr. McMichael looked like the only physician by that name on staff, but what if the lady was trying to reach an unlisted nurse? Or a patient? Or a janitor? Melissa was helpful, always. She didn’t want to give this lady the runaround. Or worse, what if the woman thought Melissa DID know Beatrice by virtue of her suddenly having the number? Would she think Melissa had been a jerk during the previous calls by not volunteering this information earlier?

As she fretted over all the possibilities, the phone rang again.

“Hello? Is Beatrice there?”

Melissa panicked. “Um. Yes, this is Beatrice.”

“Oh, thank heavens!” the woman said, “It’s Harriet. I’ve been trying to reach you all day at this number and some crackpot kept telling me they’d never even heard of you.”

Melissa laughed. “Oh, that must have been Melissa. She’s kind of dense.”

“I’ll say!” Harriet laughed, too.

Melissa put Harriet on speakerphone and kept working. For the next two hours, Harriet told Melissa all about her horny brother-in-law who kept making inappropriate comments towards her whenever he got the chance. Meanwhile, Harriet’s husband Jim never said anything to his brother about it for some reason. This really bothered Harriet.

“What do you think I should do?” Harriet asked.

“I think Jim is being… well, a pussy.”

Harriet giggled.

“You think Jim’s brother is cute though, don’t you?” Melissa asked.

“Well… yes, actually.”

“You should totally sleep with him.”

“WHAT?! No, I couldn’t. Really?”

“Yeah, really. You’re a beautiful lady. Go knock them boots!”

“You know what? You’re right! I’m only 58. I’m not dead down there yet.”

“That’s right you’re not. Go get’em girl!”

“I will! Thanks, Beatrice.”

After they got off the phone, Melissa felt happy that she’d actually helped someone. It helped her ignore how good it’d felt to be someone else for a couple hours.

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30 Days of Night, Vol. 5: Three Tales
30 Days of Night, Vol. 5: Three Tales by Steve Niles

My rating: 2 of 5 stars

I generally like the 30 Days of Night series, which is why I keep reading them even as the quality seems to drop the further it gets from the original. I supposed that’s the way of most sequels, but it’s sad to see it happen to this one. This book isn’t too terribly bad. Mostly it feels more like I picked up a random vampire comic as opposed to something with an identity or strong characters. If you’re interested in this series, I say stick to the first two. Maybe the third. But after that I thus far haven’t found the others to be particularly inspiring.

My biggest complaint, though, comes from my English major side. Oh sure, I can suspend disbelief enough to imagine vampires in space — but I was violently wrenched out of the narrative by the multiple spelling/grammar errors. There were many, but two of them in particular just irked me for how obvious they were:

“I came here to tell you you’re all going to die. You’re elitist ways are finished.”

and

“Your concerns are valid, Agent Henson, but we need to know what happened. We’ll include military personal among the fight crew.”

Grrr. Maybe these errors wouldn’t bother me so much if they didn’t so clearly mirror the carelessness with which the story itself was likely handled.

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 Whenever I had to do chores as a kid, I always thought about how I couldn’t wait to have a kid of my own. That, to me, was the circle of life for modern, evolved humans: children do all the work and parents rest easy. Then the child grows up, has their own kids who take over the housework, and it’s their turn to rest. Grandparents, meanwhile, evolve to a point of never making a mess. Or, alternately, they just stop cleaning entirely. That’s why their clothes always smell so musty, why they cough a lot, and why their hair is gray. (I sincerely thought that a person’s hair turned gray because they’d stopped washing it.) Kids were mini-maids, and that was their purpose on this earth until they got old enough to tend to the other things in life – like reaching things on high shelves or filling out tax returns. Then I learned that there were way more chores than my once-a-week taking out of the garbage or occasional walk of the dog and I sunk into a deep depression. How would I ever have time for reaching things on the top shelf if I still had to take out the trash sometimes? Then I found out that kids create at least as many new chores as they solve. In fact it almost seemed that the chores they did hardly helped at all and were really designed to keep them busy. Plus, kids shit all over everything, apparently. Adulthood is bullshit, man. Last week I saw a kid throwing a hissy fit outside of a Best Buy while his parents walked away with steely resolve. I picked the kid up and put him in a nearby trashcan. The parents, who’d been playing the bluff-as-if-we’re-leaving-the-kid-so-he’ll-shut-up game broke character and came running back towards me. “What’re you doing?!” they cried. “You’re welcome,” I answered. The mother looked incredulous but the father gave me a barely-restrained smile and wink when his wife wasn’t looking. “I envy you,” he seemed to be saying. I asked if he could spare a dollar, but he only had credit cards on him.

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The Walking Dead, Vol. 1: Days Gone Bye
The Walking Dead, Vol. 1: Days Gone Bye by Robert Kirkman

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

With so many zombie stories out there these days, it’s hard to discern who had which variation idea first and which are the the copies. I Am Legend, for instance, was a book first and so even though the movie version came out after 28 Days Later it would be easy to assume that 28 Days Later is the copycat in its striking scenes of an abandoned major city. But then you go back and read I Am Legend and realize that it doesn’t take place in such a major metropolitan setting and the movie version really is copycatting.

Then of course there are the even broader arguments of there being “nothing new under the sun.” That is, all stories have basically been written and all we’re doing now is rehashing them differently.

It’s impossible to write a completely objective review of any story under such a mindset, but I definitely want to try for this because I enjoyed it immensely. I did have the benefit of not having seen the show and so don’t have that skewing my perspective at all. I’ll keep it brief, though.

The bad: There are a lot of familiar threads here. The protagonist waking up from a coma, the surviving police officer/security guard as leader, the band of survivors coming together to wait for rescue, the hunt for supplies, sneak attacks, learning about the enemy.

The good: These familiar threads are woven nicely. It still feels fresh and urgent somehow. The story is told very well, moving along at a steady clip with sincerity. You can tell the creators actually care about this project. And there are aspects that are definitely unfamiliar, such as the fact that the causes of the “plague” are hardly discussed or even acknowledged. This underscores the theme of pure survival even more. Add to that the fact that the reader knows that this is a many-volumed story, and immediately the fear and danger that the characters feel is posited on the reader. We know that there is no end in sight, and we feel that through the story. This gives great power to the book. Lastly, the art is amazing — very nearly worth the four stars on its own even if there had been no story at all. Fortunately, it had a lot of good from every angle. A well-rounded zombie book.

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